ever have one of those days ? you know , the one where youre surrounded by friends and good people but you feel so incredibly alone ? please be nodding your head... im hoping its not another "sabrina" thing :S
well ive been feeling like this lately, i have good friend and a good amount of them but no matter how many i am surrounded with i feel lost . i dont feel like me , im struggling to be sabrina .. cause really who is she ? some days i dont even know .
i thought volleyball may help with this, used to be my escape and frustration reliever but im so un-confident right now , its just doubly frustratiing ...
and as i said i have great friends but its discouraging when theyre all in serious relationships and im the stupid single one.. but truth be told , thats no ones fault but my own ..
anyways, thats the dilema ... at least theres music (L) always helpful , and christmas !! yay , happiest time of the year ... right ?
2010-11-19
2010-11-13
Words after Music
An old poem I used to like, if you can figure out the deeper meaning its quite beautiful ! I like it at least :)
Where go all the melodies fair,
They that flow and fade in air?
Was their beauty all foredone?
(Ah, no--no!)
Pulse and cadence truth did tell,
Vowed to music's magic spell,
Passionate and ineffable.
Where do all the roses go,
They that die before the snow?
Was their beauty all forsworn?
(Ah, no--no!)
Flush and odor vowed aright,
When they promised rare delight,
Perennial and exquisite.
Fragile flowers and melodies
Claim a dual paradise,
Beauty is not feof to death;
(Ah, no--no)
Beauty lives in essence free,
In the inner heart we see
Beauty's immortality.
They that flow and fade in air?
Was their beauty all foredone?
(Ah, no--no!)
Pulse and cadence truth did tell,
Vowed to music's magic spell,
Passionate and ineffable.
Where do all the roses go,
They that die before the snow?
Was their beauty all forsworn?
(Ah, no--no!)
Flush and odor vowed aright,
When they promised rare delight,
Perennial and exquisite.
Fragile flowers and melodies
Claim a dual paradise,
Beauty is not feof to death;
(Ah, no--no)
Beauty lives in essence free,
In the inner heart we see
Beauty's immortality.
-Duncan Campbell Scott
2010-11-03
weeekly update !
heeelloo blog ,
sorry its been a little while, craaazy busy. man , i seem to always say that ... guess its cause im busy lol
annnywho had a pretty solid weekend , HALLOWEEN ! got a little messy on friday night but whatevss then saturday night i went up to mcmaster to go the the uni bar with sammy and her roomies , suuuper fun times :)
as for this week, its pretty regular .. tomorrow WESTERN demonstration .. loooking forward to that .. and math test , not looking forward to that ! lol and lots of other fun events coming up !!!
britty is staying over firday cause we start at crawford on saturday and sunday ! this year instead of cash im going to be making the evergreen arrangement , get to be a little artsy !!! WOOO :)
as for satuday night i get to see some of my FAVOURITE PEOPLE! torrrrks , tillybird and annngieee :)<3 cant wait
that bout it !!!
little music update .. they may be common songs or songs that were suggested to me but im loving them ... utube em up :
your love-nicki minaj, what's my name-rihann, we are who we are-keisha, difficult-uffie, energy-keri hilson
night night xoxoxox :D
sorry its been a little while, craaazy busy. man , i seem to always say that ... guess its cause im busy lol
annnywho had a pretty solid weekend , HALLOWEEN ! got a little messy on friday night but whatevss then saturday night i went up to mcmaster to go the the uni bar with sammy and her roomies , suuuper fun times :)
as for this week, its pretty regular .. tomorrow WESTERN demonstration .. loooking forward to that .. and math test , not looking forward to that ! lol and lots of other fun events coming up !!!
britty is staying over firday cause we start at crawford on saturday and sunday ! this year instead of cash im going to be making the evergreen arrangement , get to be a little artsy !!! WOOO :)
as for satuday night i get to see some of my FAVOURITE PEOPLE! torrrrks , tillybird and annngieee :)<3 cant wait
that bout it !!!
little music update .. they may be common songs or songs that were suggested to me but im loving them ... utube em up :
your love-nicki minaj, what's my name-rihann, we are who we are-keisha, difficult-uffie, energy-keri hilson
night night xoxoxox :D
2010-10-25
10 Things I Hate About You.
Tori Pick reminded me of 10 Things I Hate About You from her recent blog 10 Things I'd Like to Say to You ... So I've been meaning to blog this ! I'm not really a hater but this is partly copied from the classic movie "10 Things I Hate About You" and partly twisted around to express my feelings .
From: Me.
To: You.
Here it goes :
I hate the way you make me feel,
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate that I regret you so much ,
but more that I don't at all.
I hate that you keep stringing me along ,
but would have trouble fully letting you go.
I hate it when I think of you, or when youre on my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.
From: Me.
To: You.
Here it goes :
I hate the way you make me feel,
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate that I regret you so much ,
but more that I don't at all.
I hate that you keep stringing me along ,
but would have trouble fully letting you go.
I hate it when I think of you, or when youre on my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.
lonnnndon babby !
So I had a pretty unreal weekend...
Drove up to London, jamming some beats in the car
Reached Tillybird and we went out grocery shopping then SUSHI dinnnner :)
after we cleaned her room hahah messiness :P and got ready for tooogaa (which we arrived casually late hah **cough cough 11:30) Pretty drunken night but loads of fun
woke up slightly hungover hahah and met up with andrew and vic for a SUUUPERB tour of Western!!! really lovin it, can definitely see myself there ! :) and lastly had a delicious lunch at Moxys!!!
overall fun times, many laughs for sure !!
love you best friend :)
2010-10-21
your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
haven't blogged in a little while, my bad. been crazy busy with school and my job lately.. tiring me out and making me a tad sick but meh, ill get over it! current life = decent. loving friends right now , but love em even when we're all drama free.
tomorrow = Friday (thank god) and TICAT game.. pretty excited .. solid night with the boys and miss mlot, thornhill and moffat :)
Saturday = Work then driving up to LOOOONDON ! Toga party at the shawe ahahahhaha then spending the night with m besssstie
Sunday- touring around westeeeeerrrnnn so excited :)
then back to reality i guess , WHHAM physics test right when i get back wooohooo :P
as for the the love life , well its pretty dull as per usual lol , why is it that i torture myself mentioning my lack of love life ? maybe because it'd be nice to have a little fling .. as death cab once told me .. "someday you will be loved" ... check it out (loves it) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neXaFUmiV3g
anywho , I'm gunna go relax in the tubbbb
ta ta for now fellow readers
have a wonderful evening :)
tomorrow = Friday (thank god) and TICAT game.. pretty excited .. solid night with the boys and miss mlot, thornhill and moffat :)
Saturday = Work then driving up to LOOOONDON ! Toga party at the shawe ahahahhaha then spending the night with m besssstie
Sunday- touring around westeeeeerrrnnn so excited :)
then back to reality i guess , WHHAM physics test right when i get back wooohooo :P
as for the the love life , well its pretty dull as per usual lol , why is it that i torture myself mentioning my lack of love life ? maybe because it'd be nice to have a little fling .. as death cab once told me .. "someday you will be loved" ... check it out (loves it) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neXaFUmiV3g
anywho , I'm gunna go relax in the tubbbb
ta ta for now fellow readers
have a wonderful evening :)
2010-10-12
untitled?
Beautiful day but a lousy mood.
So I grabbed a cup of tea and took young Newman out for a walk.
Turned on some beats and tried to work out my feelings.
Ever had one of those days where no matter what happens, big or small, tears well up in your eyes? Just had one. And although I didn't cry, I felt like I was going to burst in tears at any given moment. Why you might ask? Good question, because I myself can't even figure it out.
I guess I'm just not feeling 100% myself. I felt like I was in one of those TV scenes where you're standing in the middle of the hall and everyone around you is passing in a blur.
Standing and watching your best friend walk away. Or standing and feeling broken hearted. Standing and knowing that lately, you're not doing as well as you could.
I honestly can't pinpoint when I started feeling this way... I lost myself and I'd like to find my way again. Really, how hard can it be? I'm standing right here, I just need to get a grip and be me.
So I take off my sweater and stand in the brisk cold Autumn air. And for the first time today, I feel something other than sadness.
For anyone reading or just to cyberspace, my apologies for the outburst of gloom. On a positive note, I now raise my cup of tea and toast to a happy week. In my opinion the first step to overcoming sadness, is to plaster a wide smile on your face and tell yourself that this will get better (as cliche as that sounds)
Goodbye for now and thank you blog for the little therapy session.
Sabrina xo
So I grabbed a cup of tea and took young Newman out for a walk.
Turned on some beats and tried to work out my feelings.
Ever had one of those days where no matter what happens, big or small, tears well up in your eyes? Just had one. And although I didn't cry, I felt like I was going to burst in tears at any given moment. Why you might ask? Good question, because I myself can't even figure it out.
I guess I'm just not feeling 100% myself. I felt like I was in one of those TV scenes where you're standing in the middle of the hall and everyone around you is passing in a blur.
Standing and watching your best friend walk away. Or standing and feeling broken hearted. Standing and knowing that lately, you're not doing as well as you could.
I honestly can't pinpoint when I started feeling this way... I lost myself and I'd like to find my way again. Really, how hard can it be? I'm standing right here, I just need to get a grip and be me.
So I take off my sweater and stand in the brisk cold Autumn air. And for the first time today, I feel something other than sadness.
For anyone reading or just to cyberspace, my apologies for the outburst of gloom. On a positive note, I now raise my cup of tea and toast to a happy week. In my opinion the first step to overcoming sadness, is to plaster a wide smile on your face and tell yourself that this will get better (as cliche as that sounds)
Goodbye for now and thank you blog for the little therapy session.
Sabrina xo
2010-10-05
the perfect two
life update:
super busy with school / studying all that jazz.. looking forward to seeing some very special uni /college kids :) looking forward to this weekend ... although i work everyday itll consist of some shopping , partying , turkey dinnndinns and catching up on old times + i wont have too much hmwk .. woo cant wait .
my girl t pick suggested a song to me todayand im really loving it .. cutest lyrics . check it out if you've got a minute (L)
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Cause your the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
And we're the perfect two
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6JmxulIESY&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh+div-1r-3-HM
super busy with school / studying all that jazz.. looking forward to seeing some very special uni /college kids :) looking forward to this weekend ... although i work everyday itll consist of some shopping , partying , turkey dinnndinns and catching up on old times + i wont have too much hmwk .. woo cant wait .
my girl t pick suggested a song to me todayand im really loving it .. cutest lyrics . check it out if you've got a minute (L)
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'
Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Cause your the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
And we're the perfect two
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6JmxulIESY&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh+div-1r-3-HM
2010-09-29
2010-09-26
ohhh forbidden looove!
why is it that i consistently go for people i clearly cannot have ?
well, i sabrina loeprich, am currently trying to get over a little (ok ok not so little) hang up SOOO as friends have informed me, the best way to move on is ... To Wheel.
Ok, I can do this (maybe not well but i can try) you know flirt, hit, the whole shaaabam! so i begin to scope over the past week or so and who do my eyes land on. yes, you guess it.. someone totally inappropriately unavailable.
Single ? yes.
Good looking ? I think so ;)
Nice guy ? The Nicest.
so you may ask, whats the hold up??? a pretty key component... AGE!
i was sorta kinda in diapers when he was like hitting puberty ! well , maybe not that far off but answer me this ... is 7 years too far off ?! :S
lol , not only that, the entire circumstance is probably "against the rules"
any advice fellow readers ?!
thanks, appreciate it !
2010-09-25
a "wild" trip!
im baaack ! which makes me happy and sad all at the same time !
happy becuase i've missed people and clean showers but sad cause
i had the time of my lifee! wilderness north has been the highlight of my high school days and going as a leader was just as amazing . it was such an outgoing group of leaders and teachers which made the experience all the more.
i think most of us were pretty nervous for some of the grade tens coming up but my partner garathi (BEST GIRL) and i really lucked out with like the CUTEST CABIN EVVVER ! not trying to brag but they were seriously the best group of girls. i love every one of them and cant wait for our massive slumber party :)
overall, the weeek was legendary. camfires, late night chatts, dance parties and ending it off with the most epic talent show !!!
2010-09-19
the wilddddd
so so so excited , off to wilderness north in like 8 hoursss ! WOOOOOOO
honestly too excited to function right now... a lil escape from reality and off to the wild !
be back on friday!
ill update then :)
peaaaaaaaaaaaace out kids !!
sabrina xoxox
2010-09-17
life as i know it
hello blog and fellow readers !
i have sort of neglected my blog lately, haven't forgot about it but have been writing in a writers craft note book instead .. sorry blog.
hmmmm what to say. well school has started . schedule :
1st : offfff
2nd: advanced functions
3rd: LUNCH
4th: physics
5th: writers craft
so far its going well, to be completely honest im already a little bored .. and slightly overwhelmed
not mentioning the fact that im missing all next week ! helllllooo streeess :S
haha its also sorta weird at school without the older grade , really missin em ! LEGIT come home :'(
on the plus side , monday = WILDERNESS NORTH ! wooooooooooooo insanely pumped. it has been my fave high school experience and i cant wait to be a leader. also got an awesome partner , miss garathi ! :)
as for me , miss sabrina victoria... well im good , still confused as ever about future and decisions and the opposite gender but heeey some things never change right ?! lol
feel free to leave some input :)
peace and lovee kiddooos
an old fave , check it out : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jduFDgIr598
i have sort of neglected my blog lately, haven't forgot about it but have been writing in a writers craft note book instead .. sorry blog.
hmmmm what to say. well school has started . schedule :
1st : offfff
2nd: advanced functions
3rd: LUNCH
4th: physics
5th: writers craft
so far its going well, to be completely honest im already a little bored .. and slightly overwhelmed
not mentioning the fact that im missing all next week ! helllllooo streeess :S
haha its also sorta weird at school without the older grade , really missin em ! LEGIT come home :'(
on the plus side , monday = WILDERNESS NORTH ! wooooooooooooo insanely pumped. it has been my fave high school experience and i cant wait to be a leader. also got an awesome partner , miss garathi ! :)
as for me , miss sabrina victoria... well im good , still confused as ever about future and decisions and the opposite gender but heeey some things never change right ?! lol
feel free to leave some input :)
peace and lovee kiddooos
an old fave , check it out : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jduFDgIr598
2010-09-09
claaassic chaatt
a classic chatt with my girl btils tonight on skype.
oh how ive missed her, legit girl.. i think about ou every day ! (in the non creepy way lol) but seriously.. lots of little things i do remind me of our goodtimes ..
like the other day in wirters craft we had to write newspaper headlines bout our summer... girl, youre in quite a few. heres a couple ....
Summer Sushi Tour - no raw deal ! teheheh
Baking mishap - short and sweet, she's no Betty Crocker!
A growing friendship with the gentle giant, friends forever .
LOOOVE YOU GIRL !
cant wait for our next skype date <3
oh how ive missed her, legit girl.. i think about ou every day ! (in the non creepy way lol) but seriously.. lots of little things i do remind me of our goodtimes ..
like the other day in wirters craft we had to write newspaper headlines bout our summer... girl, youre in quite a few. heres a couple ....
Summer Sushi Tour - no raw deal ! teheheh
Baking mishap - short and sweet, she's no Betty Crocker!
A growing friendship with the gentle giant, friends forever .
LOOOVE YOU GIRL !
cant wait for our next skype date <3
wait..? forget..?
Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.
This is the problem ... I'm the most indecisive person you will meet, hence making decisions is not my forte!
I'm at a bit of a standstill, wait or forget.
The naive part of me is hopelessly waits for a dream that likely won't come true. But I just can't forget and move on, its probably the healthy thing to do but what if.......?
This is the problem ... I'm the most indecisive person you will meet, hence making decisions is not my forte!
I'm at a bit of a standstill, wait or forget.
The naive part of me is hopelessly waits for a dream that likely won't come true. But I just can't forget and move on, its probably the healthy thing to do but what if.......?
2010-09-05
bittersweet fairwell
this screen saver has been blinking at me all day as if to say, "sabrina, sit down and BLOG!" see life as I've known it has sort of changed , i know i know that's dramatic but its also legit.
around the corner awaits another school year.
grade 12.
that in itself is a big deal i guess but my excitement is sort of on hold....
my bestesssst friend and many other close friends have left this year, embarking on the college/university experience. truthfully, i couldn't be happier for them. they get the opportunity to meet a whole new sea of people, start new classes, and build a new semi-permanent home ! its the whole shaaabam! so live it up, party, learn, whatever it is you choose.. just be happy :)
and so i know this isn't goodbye, merely just see ya later, but i cant help but face the insecurity that i'll be forgotten. I'm just some high school chum now lol. so i ask this one favor: don't forget to visit. I already miss you soo much .. all of you 92's !
as for me, well HELLLO grade 12. cant wait to start a promising new year with all ma girlies , and whats left of you boys hahah (they all seem to be disappearing too, another sad story!!!)
please, be good to me 2010/2011.. to me and to all you wonderful people out there !
peace & lots of loooove ,
sabrina :)
around the corner awaits another school year.
grade 12.
that in itself is a big deal i guess but my excitement is sort of on hold....
my bestesssst friend and many other close friends have left this year, embarking on the college/university experience. truthfully, i couldn't be happier for them. they get the opportunity to meet a whole new sea of people, start new classes, and build a new semi-permanent home ! its the whole shaaabam! so live it up, party, learn, whatever it is you choose.. just be happy :)
and so i know this isn't goodbye, merely just see ya later, but i cant help but face the insecurity that i'll be forgotten. I'm just some high school chum now lol. so i ask this one favor: don't forget to visit. I already miss you soo much .. all of you 92's !
as for me, well HELLLO grade 12. cant wait to start a promising new year with all ma girlies , and whats left of you boys hahah (they all seem to be disappearing too, another sad story!!!)
please, be good to me 2010/2011.. to me and to all you wonderful people out there !
peace & lots of loooove ,
sabrina :)
2010-08-30
peace&tranquility
some fave calming music at the moment:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sv_FM0OlXtc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6XZsau7CSk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s830CSutPoE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbAZiVRG6h0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7SK_Ps_Jfeg
if you've got the time, check em out and let me know what you think :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sv_FM0OlXtc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6XZsau7CSk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s830CSutPoE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QbAZiVRG6h0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7SK_Ps_Jfeg
if you've got the time, check em out and let me know what you think :)
2010-08-29
tannn lineess
the tan lines may fade, but the memories will last forever.
aint that true.. spent the day outside, soaking up the sun and im now noticing the insane patches of red all over my body hahah if only i had been wearing a bikini!!!
the burn will turn to a tan and then the tan will fade away but the memories today will last forever.
not only did i learn how to play euchre (which i've been wanting to learn for sooo long) but we had some epic life chatts..tillybird, mr foster and i.
these are two people that i really respect and could listen to them talk for hours on end.. that may seem strange but seriously, theyre deep. its the kind of learning i enjoying, legitimate life lessons.
todays topic: relationships.
after all sharing our own stories, we exchanged our theories.
heres what stuck.. fosters theory: you have to wake up in the morning and want to be with that certain person and you have to know that they wake up and are thinking the exact same thing about you. and this isnt every now and then.. this has to be everyday, ring ring goes the alarm, you wake up and you have to want that person and they have to want you too
so i gues thats the goal, find someone who makes you feel like that. thats my goal at least, as hard as it may be i need to forget the past and start a clean slate. the past may come back and thats quite alright in the future but maybe we all need to focus on the now, the present. let me not start with high hopes but be hopeful enought that this will be a promising year !
aint that true.. spent the day outside, soaking up the sun and im now noticing the insane patches of red all over my body hahah if only i had been wearing a bikini!!!
the burn will turn to a tan and then the tan will fade away but the memories today will last forever.
not only did i learn how to play euchre (which i've been wanting to learn for sooo long) but we had some epic life chatts..tillybird, mr foster and i.
these are two people that i really respect and could listen to them talk for hours on end.. that may seem strange but seriously, theyre deep. its the kind of learning i enjoying, legitimate life lessons.
todays topic: relationships.
after all sharing our own stories, we exchanged our theories.
heres what stuck.. fosters theory: you have to wake up in the morning and want to be with that certain person and you have to know that they wake up and are thinking the exact same thing about you. and this isnt every now and then.. this has to be everyday, ring ring goes the alarm, you wake up and you have to want that person and they have to want you too
so i gues thats the goal, find someone who makes you feel like that. thats my goal at least, as hard as it may be i need to forget the past and start a clean slate. the past may come back and thats quite alright in the future but maybe we all need to focus on the now, the present. let me not start with high hopes but be hopeful enought that this will be a promising year !
freshen up
dear blog ,
what do you think? quite the snazzy makeover if i do say so myself ... you have Shittany Kilstra to thank for that lol (lovee you hahah)
anywho, this renovation represents the beggining of a new era. hello grade 12, nice to meet you! guess what?? Im going to own you ;) wooo
so this friend of mine has this ambitious goal to blog once a day, i would love to but fear i would not have the same commitment , therefore ... i shall blog at LEAST once per week. blog about anything, happy times, sad times, goals, future happenings and of coarse wheels. (for Shittany Kilstra)
as for the title, this is a fresh start ..au revoir past, bonjour present !!
shout out to my boys, goodbye and goodluck my darlings (Catt Supont and Fan Tater) teaaars :( miss you both sooo much
and certainly goodbye but not a final fairwell to all you going to college/uni ! love you all , even you Shittany. saddens me to think i wont be seeing you all day everyday but we shall have numerous visits for sure
that about wraps up bloooggger numero un. night night loves :)
what do you think? quite the snazzy makeover if i do say so myself ... you have Shittany Kilstra to thank for that lol (lovee you hahah)
anywho, this renovation represents the beggining of a new era. hello grade 12, nice to meet you! guess what?? Im going to own you ;) wooo
so this friend of mine has this ambitious goal to blog once a day, i would love to but fear i would not have the same commitment , therefore ... i shall blog at LEAST once per week. blog about anything, happy times, sad times, goals, future happenings and of coarse wheels. (for Shittany Kilstra)
as for the title, this is a fresh start ..au revoir past, bonjour present !!
shout out to my boys, goodbye and goodluck my darlings (Catt Supont and Fan Tater) teaaars :( miss you both sooo much
and certainly goodbye but not a final fairwell to all you going to college/uni ! love you all , even you Shittany. saddens me to think i wont be seeing you all day everyday but we shall have numerous visits for sure
that about wraps up bloooggger numero un. night night loves :)
2010-08-11
got the blueees
feeling pretty lowww, need some major cheering up !
i thought this summer was gunna be the best everr and it definitly has been fun but i secretly miss last summer .. just the little things about it, i think i was happier then .
as for this summer, there are three things that just uuuuuuurk me ...
1. My job .. very possible im going to die of bordem !
2. getting "stood up" because something better came along or becuase they'd rather chill with a bf / gf .. seriously, once it happens to you, you'll realize its actually the biggest slap in the face. It leaves you thinking "is there something wrong with hanging out with me???"
3. not having a phhhhonnne ! omg at first i was like "this is niceee" but now, i feel like i cant get ahold of anyone and no one can get ahold of me ! Very frustrating !!!
whhheeww, now i feel a tad better.. on my way to watch date night .. possible chucklesss , i hope so!
if youve got any good jokes / stories.. comment them up ! anything will do
thanks !
i thought this summer was gunna be the best everr and it definitly has been fun but i secretly miss last summer .. just the little things about it, i think i was happier then .
as for this summer, there are three things that just uuuuuuurk me ...
1. My job .. very possible im going to die of bordem !
2. getting "stood up" because something better came along or becuase they'd rather chill with a bf / gf .. seriously, once it happens to you, you'll realize its actually the biggest slap in the face. It leaves you thinking "is there something wrong with hanging out with me???"
3. not having a phhhhonnne ! omg at first i was like "this is niceee" but now, i feel like i cant get ahold of anyone and no one can get ahold of me ! Very frustrating !!!
whhheeww, now i feel a tad better.. on my way to watch date night .. possible chucklesss , i hope so!
if youve got any good jokes / stories.. comment them up ! anything will do
thanks !
2010-08-01
Clear Skies Ahead
I was lying in bed and so many thoughts were clouding my head that I decided it was best to blog.. I came downstairs determined to blog about the up and downs of this week or summer or something but why bother !
I guess no matter what age or stage in your life, friends will be up and down ... Currently had a bit of both. Such amazing times with my bestie lately but some crappy situations with others. Im no longer upset but a word to the wise.. Its shady to pass up plans cause something better comes along ..
And as for the largest cloud in my mind, well its time to vanish.. Seriously, you've been in my mind for so long on and off and well, my heart can't take it. I have no more time to waste thinking or dreaming or wondering... I keep going over it again and again and again .. The past times and 'what if's' but its over now. Goodbye and good ridance you big fluffycloud.
Its about time I turn things around, lifes to short regret and resent.. So i'll raise my glass to the positive present and promising future !
Cheers.
Xoxox, Sabrina
I guess no matter what age or stage in your life, friends will be up and down ... Currently had a bit of both. Such amazing times with my bestie lately but some crappy situations with others. Im no longer upset but a word to the wise.. Its shady to pass up plans cause something better comes along ..
And as for the largest cloud in my mind, well its time to vanish.. Seriously, you've been in my mind for so long on and off and well, my heart can't take it. I have no more time to waste thinking or dreaming or wondering... I keep going over it again and again and again .. The past times and 'what if's' but its over now. Goodbye and good ridance you big fluffycloud.
Its about time I turn things around, lifes to short regret and resent.. So i'll raise my glass to the positive present and promising future !
Cheers.
Xoxox, Sabrina
2010-07-18
miss you (L)
Quotes that explain this feeling...
Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.
And so I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you and if you ever miss me the way I miss you.
?
Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.
And so I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you and if you ever miss me the way I miss you.
?
2010-07-04
Bye Bye Regret
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight.
-Eminem
Dear Blog,
To start it off, Ill just say that I am overjoyed that its summer. So glad to be done the school year and I finally get to enjoy my favourite season. I must say its been an awesome start: Prom, Canada Day and random chills with friends. And there's definitely a lot to look forward to.
Unfortunately, there's a lingering feeling that I can't seem to be rid of. That's where Eminem comes in... Currently obsessed with his new song and these particular lyrics describe the way i feel. This is how it feels when I'm surged with regret. Which seems to be often. Why? I don't know.. Ever feel like you re always making the wrong decision? You have two choices but you continually choose the wrong one.. And then you're left to wonder, would I feel better if I picked the other? It's inevitable, isn't it? Either way, you'll always wonder, what if.... ? This is exactly what is lingering.. What if I hadn't made that mistake? What if i hadn't run away? What if there would've been spark or an undeniable connection? No doubt, this year would've turned out a whole lot differently.. but that's fate isn't it?! This is supposed to happen.. We were supposed to take this path and make this choice. And we don't always make the best choice but we were supposed to make it anyways because that way we "learn" from it.
Well I'll tell you what, I'm sick of regret.. From now on, I won't regret the decisions I make because it's honestly not worth it .. I shall live and learn.
We'll see how it goes .
Ta ta for now.
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight.
-Eminem
Dear Blog,
To start it off, Ill just say that I am overjoyed that its summer. So glad to be done the school year and I finally get to enjoy my favourite season. I must say its been an awesome start: Prom, Canada Day and random chills with friends. And there's definitely a lot to look forward to.
Unfortunately, there's a lingering feeling that I can't seem to be rid of. That's where Eminem comes in... Currently obsessed with his new song and these particular lyrics describe the way i feel. This is how it feels when I'm surged with regret. Which seems to be often. Why? I don't know.. Ever feel like you re always making the wrong decision? You have two choices but you continually choose the wrong one.. And then you're left to wonder, would I feel better if I picked the other? It's inevitable, isn't it? Either way, you'll always wonder, what if.... ? This is exactly what is lingering.. What if I hadn't made that mistake? What if i hadn't run away? What if there would've been spark or an undeniable connection? No doubt, this year would've turned out a whole lot differently.. but that's fate isn't it?! This is supposed to happen.. We were supposed to take this path and make this choice. And we don't always make the best choice but we were supposed to make it anyways because that way we "learn" from it.
Well I'll tell you what, I'm sick of regret.. From now on, I won't regret the decisions I make because it's honestly not worth it .. I shall live and learn.
We'll see how it goes .
Ta ta for now.
2010-06-01
what you give is what you get
I think that I'm a good friend. I care and put a lot of thought and effort into my friendships. I put thought into gifts and special events, I feel concerned and I listen if friends need my support, I ask questions and get to know my friends and quite honestly, I truly value my friendships. I don't do these things and care so much because I want an award for being the bestest friend, I do it because I genuinely care.
Part of me thinks that friends come before family, because friends understand you on a whole different level. If things aren't going well at home, they're always there to comfort you... Well that's what I thought, but its not true. Only a TRUE friend cares and only a TRUE friend appriciates you.
I realized today that it's so tiring to put in so much effort and only being acknolwedged and apprieciated sometimes. That's not how it works. I'm sick of putting 100% into a relationship and only get 70% in return. I don't want 70%!! Hell, I don't even think Im getting 70% sometimes!! It would be nice to be more valued sometimes.
After today, I've decided that what you give is what you get. If you only want to put 50% into a relationship then thats what you'll get in return from me. Because I don't have the energy to waste my time and care so much to only be cared about a little bit in return. And when it comes to talking behind people's backs, well that just doesn't fly with me.. I wont put up with that anymore.
Im not saying Im perfect, there are definitely times where Im not a thoughtful and caring friend. We all have moments but I hope my friendship is valued and important enough to you that you consider what I've said.
Im not asking for much, just a true friend.
Part of me thinks that friends come before family, because friends understand you on a whole different level. If things aren't going well at home, they're always there to comfort you... Well that's what I thought, but its not true. Only a TRUE friend cares and only a TRUE friend appriciates you.
I realized today that it's so tiring to put in so much effort and only being acknolwedged and apprieciated sometimes. That's not how it works. I'm sick of putting 100% into a relationship and only get 70% in return. I don't want 70%!! Hell, I don't even think Im getting 70% sometimes!! It would be nice to be more valued sometimes.
After today, I've decided that what you give is what you get. If you only want to put 50% into a relationship then thats what you'll get in return from me. Because I don't have the energy to waste my time and care so much to only be cared about a little bit in return. And when it comes to talking behind people's backs, well that just doesn't fly with me.. I wont put up with that anymore.
Im not saying Im perfect, there are definitely times where Im not a thoughtful and caring friend. We all have moments but I hope my friendship is valued and important enough to you that you consider what I've said.
Im not asking for much, just a true friend.
2010-05-02
a moment of clarity & change
think back to yesterday, has a lot changed since then ? not really.
how about a week ago ? a bit .
a month? oh yeaa!!
and think all the way back a year ago or since the beginning of highschool?? EVERTHING has changed... life as we know it !
and ill tell you what , another change is just around the corner.. i can feel it ! and to be honest, im pumppped! fingers are crossed its a good change , and once its happened .. ill blog about it .. you have my word ! :)
peace out !
how about a week ago ? a bit .
a month? oh yeaa!!
and think all the way back a year ago or since the beginning of highschool?? EVERTHING has changed... life as we know it !
and ill tell you what , another change is just around the corner.. i can feel it ! and to be honest, im pumppped! fingers are crossed its a good change , and once its happened .. ill blog about it .. you have my word ! :)
peace out !
2010-04-29
Your Love Is My Drug!
So originally I wasn't really a fan of this song
.. But call me crazy, Im starting to like it and its lyrics.
Im sure at some point, every girl has been able to relate:
Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I got a sick obsession
I'm seein it in my dreams
I'm lookin down every alley
I'm makin those desperate calls
I'm stayin up all night hopin hitin my head against the wall
What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
Im all strung out my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind!
Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Wont listen to any advice
Mommas tellin me I should think twice
But look into my own devices, im addicted its a crisis
My friends think ive gone crazy
My judgments gettin kinda hazy
My steeze is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crack head
What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
Im all strung out my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind!
Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
I dont care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when your with me
But crash and crave you when you leave
Hey, so I got a question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum
Is my love your drug? Your drug?
Huh, your drug?
Huh, your drug?
Is my love your drug?
Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
<3
2010-04-25
on the pursuit of happiness !!!
kinda lost in my own world lately...
cant particularly concentrate on anything. ever get those days? where you can stare off into space for hours and find it extremely difficult to reel yourself back to reality?! well thats me !
life in general is good though, not tooo many complaints, well maybs a few but lets keep this positive. to be completely honest, my life right now consists of music.. music and more music. i keep listening to songs and feel like they were written to describe my life, like every line could be a potential facebook status (as lame as that is! lol)
on another note, well the codes been cracked. secrets out.. comtempated for days whether to say anything but turns out im kinda obvious and didnt need to say anything at all.... and how do i feel about this!?! well, relieved and sorta happy but sorta sad at the same time because nothing can come of it ... me and my timing, i'm telling ya- its impecable (8)
this is life and life goes on... speaking of, i better get back to it !!
ta ta for now xoxox
cant particularly concentrate on anything. ever get those days? where you can stare off into space for hours and find it extremely difficult to reel yourself back to reality?! well thats me !
life in general is good though, not tooo many complaints, well maybs a few but lets keep this positive. to be completely honest, my life right now consists of music.. music and more music. i keep listening to songs and feel like they were written to describe my life, like every line could be a potential facebook status (as lame as that is! lol)
on another note, well the codes been cracked. secrets out.. comtempated for days whether to say anything but turns out im kinda obvious and didnt need to say anything at all.... and how do i feel about this!?! well, relieved and sorta happy but sorta sad at the same time because nothing can come of it ... me and my timing, i'm telling ya- its impecable (8)
this is life and life goes on... speaking of, i better get back to it !!
ta ta for now xoxox
2010-04-10
European Alteration
Sadly, my European journey has ended. We arrived back home in Canada today and I can't say I'm too pleased.. I honestly had the time of my life. The places and people and good times made for a trip of a lifetime. Being a tolerance trip, I feel as though I learnt so much history and background information about major historical periods in Europe but not only did i learn about that, I feel like I learnt more about me .. about the real Sabrina Loeprich.
Is it possible, that in 10 days, my life has been altered ?
It was a well needed escape from reality, a chance to get away and ponder the value of different life aspects. This trip gave me an opportunity to make friends or stronger friendships, and to consider what makes me happy but also what needs to change. I guess you could almost say that I've come back more confused than when I left but I think that is only because the overall outlook on my life and certain situations has broadened greatly.
What I need now is to consider my next move. Should I purchase Park Place or would it be a better idea to continue on in hopes of purchasing the Boardwalk?This is sort of where I get stuck.. In a sticky situation where I'm torn between happiness and morals?! Luckily I have someone special (*cough cough* B.Tils) who I can always count on to shed some light. She's always helpful, unfortunately its takes me forever to finally make decisions.
What's the best move when in this situation? To make the right decision, does one .. a) Do something that makes others happy. b) Do something that makes yourself happy. I'd like to do both, but I find that most of the time its one or the other!!
Deary me, decisions decisions decisions.... Life shall go on though.
Feel free to leave any sort of advice or tips :)
Peace & 'European' Love ,
Sabrina <3
2010-03-29
Leaving on a jet plane.
On Thursday I shall be departing for Germany, Polland and Czech. Personally, I've never travelled to Europe so my excitement level is at about a 12 (out of 10). I can't wait to go, it's gunna be nice to have a little vacay. Its also one of those trips that is sort of a life changer and hopefully one of the best I've been on.. No pressure or anything.
Part of me is also nervous though. I can already imagine me being the one stupid enough to get pickpocketed , fingers crossed that doesn't happen.
Overall, I'm excited...I'm nervous...I'm pretty much feeling every extreme emotion in my life right now but hey, that's part of being a teenager right!?!
Well thats about all the time I have to blog tonight... I got to get back to reality.
Auf Wiedersehen :)
Part of me is also nervous though. I can already imagine me being the one stupid enough to get pickpocketed , fingers crossed that doesn't happen.
Overall, I'm excited...I'm nervous...I'm pretty much feeling every extreme emotion in my life right now but hey, that's part of being a teenager right!?!
Well thats about all the time I have to blog tonight... I got to get back to reality.
Auf Wiedersehen :)
2010-02-24
Life Un-un-Expected !
So I haven't blogged in AGES!
Why ? I'm not entirely sure.
Is it because I'm too busy? Maybe.
Have nothing to say? Could be that too.
Or because what I have to say has very little importance? Quite possible.
But life has been good, progressing nicely other than a semi lame semester. I like the classes but the schedule is kinda bonkersss !
So not much has changed...
I still over analyse everything, if you know what I mean.
Still looking for a good time and positive life.
Still a brunette .
And still looking to make my mark in the world.
Anything to ask or comment?! Don't hesitate! I like the conversation. Hell, comment anonymously if you'd prefer.
Peace & Love!
Sabsss :)
Why ? I'm not entirely sure.
Is it because I'm too busy? Maybe.
Have nothing to say? Could be that too.
Or because what I have to say has very little importance? Quite possible.
But life has been good, progressing nicely other than a semi lame semester. I like the classes but the schedule is kinda bonkersss !
So not much has changed...
I still over analyse everything, if you know what I mean.
Still looking for a good time and positive life.
Still a brunette .
And still looking to make my mark in the world.
Anything to ask or comment?! Don't hesitate! I like the conversation. Hell, comment anonymously if you'd prefer.
Peace & Love!
Sabsss :)
2010-02-03
Predictably Unpredicable
The way I see it, we all have purpose.
A specific reason for existence.
Some change the world, others save lives.
A specific reason for existence.
Some change the world, others save lives.
I often times wonder my specific purpose... Will I make a difference?!
Will I leave an impact in society? Or just a single life?
Big or small, it's no matter to me but its always my goal to strive for greatness hoping to make some kind of voice or difference.
Set standards high. Reach for the stars, and if you fail, reach even higher next time.. the moon, maybe. There's never any harm in trying. Think of it this way, if no one ever tried or cared, life and existence would have very little point.
To make this simple. There's really just one rule: Care.
Care enough to try.
Enough to love.
Enough to love.
Enough to make mistakes and get your hands dirty.
Spread the peace and the love.
This life involves a lot of living, so make it worth while!
This life involves a lot of living, so make it worth while!
Cheeriohhh,
Sabbrina !
2010-01-18
Tip of the Iceberg
So I haven't blogged in a while and I'm feeling quite deprived.
Needless to say, I've been super busy.
Life's good! Stressful but goooood !
First off, Passed my road test and loooving the freedom of having my licence.
Second, Summatives are slowly coming to an end and now my main stress and worry are exams
Third, things are looking bright in a certain relationship that I've truly missed !
So ya, this is sorta just a random blog but that's because my thoughts are sorta all over the place.
On a random note, below is two poems written by myself and the lovely Linnea Burgess. English Summative. But we're quite proud.. These are my faves :
Needless to say, I've been super busy.
Life's good! Stressful but goooood !
First off, Passed my road test and loooving the freedom of having my licence.
Second, Summatives are slowly coming to an end and now my main stress and worry are exams
Third, things are looking bright in a certain relationship that I've truly missed !
So ya, this is sorta just a random blog but that's because my thoughts are sorta all over the place.
On a random note, below is two poems written by myself and the lovely Linnea Burgess. English Summative. But we're quite proud.. These are my faves :
True Beauty for Dummies
Beauty is not a possession
Nor is it a talent or skill
Learning true beauty is in itself a lesson
Because truth be told, looks can kill
Step one: The components of your appearance
Are no longer a matter.
These things are only interference
They betray you, they don’t flatter.
Step two: Ponder what lies within,
For the inside is breathtaking.
Good deeds are the recipe to win
And the result will be earth shaking.
Do you see now, how beauty is compassion?
Be generous with your love, there is no need to ration.
Beauty is not a possession
Nor is it a talent or skill
Learning true beauty is in itself a lesson
Because truth be told, looks can kill
Step one: The components of your appearance
Are no longer a matter.
These things are only interference
They betray you, they don’t flatter.
Step two: Ponder what lies within,
For the inside is breathtaking.
Good deeds are the recipe to win
And the result will be earth shaking.
Do you see now, how beauty is compassion?
Be generous with your love, there is no need to ration.
The Second Edition Mirror
The “inner” mirror,
Who so ever creates this,
Will be a very rich man.
The “inner” mirror,
Would expose true reflection,
Too bad none exists.
I do feel strongly about inner beauty. To me, character and personality is a lot more important.. Sometimes I wish others would look past all the materialistic and superficial things in life and look more carefully at the inner beauty that everyone possesses.
Music Adive:
(I may not listen to your kind of music and you may not enjoy my style but here's my music advice for the week)
- Owl City & Jacks Mannequin - greeeaat bands, can't get enough of them
- I Was Walking with a Ghost by Tegan & Sara (Linnea introduced me and I loooooove!)
- Show me what Im looking for by Carolina Liar
-Cant think of anything else right now :P
TA TA FOR NOW !
Peace & Love Ladies and Gents!
xox
2010-01-03
ma résolution
2010, where to start.
I have many goals/desires/dreams, you know .. resolutions for this year. I would also say I have high expectations. 2009 was sort of a disappointment and so therefore I'm thinking 2010 will have to make up for it!
As I was saying, I have a lot of goals that I’d like to accomplish this year. And here’s what I’ve come up with so far:
- Work super hard in school but still party HARD and have fun outside of school
- Keep life as drama free as possible
- Make a new friend :)
- Paint a mural
- Pass my G2 test (Jan 14th.. Fingers crossed!)
- Learn French (Hence the title lol)
- Read, read and read some more!
And now for my resolutions:
#1: Miss Gabel and I have challenged ourselves to cut out all chips, pretzels, nachos, cheesies etc.
#2: After speaking with Miss Schaffler, I decided to go vegetarian again. I was a veeeg for a while before Gr9 but I wasn’t getting enough protein and iron so I got very weak but this time I know what I'm doing and looking forward to it!
That’s about it for now but I think it’s a pretty solid start.
Au revoir pour le moment mes amis!!
-Sabrina Victoria
2010-01-01
where one book closes, another one will open.
So I'm just looooving life.
Honestly an awwwesome break and well, ending off 2009 was greaaat..
Can't say I was a big fan really, had its ups and downs I guess !
But this past week has been incredible.
First with Christmas, then snowboarding, hanging with besties, skating, shopping in Toronto and last night new years !!
And if i can add, had an ammmmmmazing night at the Gabel's. Pretty much my favourite family ever hahah!
Eating munchies, playing pool, skating (with a massive shirts vs. skin snowball fight! lol) countdown and dance party, shoooters and lastly hot tubbbing. SOLID NIGHT!
Kinda bummed that the break is coming to an end, but I am kinda intrigued to what 2010 will bring to the table.
Well thats about it for today.
Ta Ta for now !!
Peace & Love,
Sabbbbs ! ;)
Honestly an awwwesome break and well, ending off 2009 was greaaat..
Can't say I was a big fan really, had its ups and downs I guess !
But this past week has been incredible.
First with Christmas, then snowboarding, hanging with besties, skating, shopping in Toronto and last night new years !!
And if i can add, had an ammmmmmazing night at the Gabel's. Pretty much my favourite family ever hahah!
Eating munchies, playing pool, skating (with a massive shirts vs. skin snowball fight! lol) countdown and dance party, shoooters and lastly hot tubbbing. SOLID NIGHT!
Kinda bummed that the break is coming to an end, but I am kinda intrigued to what 2010 will bring to the table.
Well thats about it for today.
Ta Ta for now !!
Peace & Love,
Sabbbbs ! ;)
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