Bye Bye Regret

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight.

-Eminem

Dear Blog,
To start it off, Ill just say that I am overjoyed that its summer. So glad to be done the school year and I finally get to enjoy my favourite season. I must say its been an awesome start: Prom, Canada Day and random chills with friends. And there's definitely a lot to look forward to.
Unfortunately, there's a lingering feeling that I can't seem to be rid of. That's where Eminem comes in... Currently obsessed with his new song and these particular lyrics describe the way i feel. This is how it feels when I'm surged with regret. Which seems to be often. Why? I don't know.. Ever feel like you re always making the wrong decision? You have two choices but you continually choose the wrong one.. And then you're left to wonder, would I feel better if I picked the other? It's inevitable, isn't it? Either way, you'll always wonder, what if.... ? This is exactly what is lingering.. What if I hadn't made that mistake? What if i hadn't run away? What if there would've been spark or an undeniable connection? No doubt, this year would've turned out a whole lot differently.. but that's fate isn't it?! This is supposed to happen.. We were supposed to take this path and make this choice. And we don't always make the best choice but we were supposed to make it anyways because that way we "learn" from it.
Well I'll tell you what, I'm sick of regret.. From now on, I won't regret the decisions I make because it's honestly not worth it .. I shall live and learn.

We'll see how it goes .
Ta ta for now.