ever have one of those days ? you know , the one where youre surrounded by friends and good people but you feel so incredibly alone ? please be nodding your head... im hoping its not another "sabrina" thing :S
well ive been feeling like this lately, i have good friend and a good amount of them but no matter how many i am surrounded with i feel lost . i dont feel like me , im struggling to be sabrina .. cause really who is she ? some days i dont even know .
i thought volleyball may help with this, used to be my escape and frustration reliever but im so un-confident right now , its just doubly frustratiing ...
and as i said i have great friends but its discouraging when theyre all in serious relationships and im the stupid single one.. but truth be told , thats no ones fault but my own ..
anyways, thats the dilema ... at least theres music (L) always helpful , and christmas !! yay , happiest time of the year ... right ?
2010-11-19
2010-11-13
Words after Music
An old poem I used to like, if you can figure out the deeper meaning its quite beautiful ! I like it at least :)
Where go all the melodies fair,
They that flow and fade in air?
Was their beauty all foredone?
(Ah, no--no!)
Pulse and cadence truth did tell,
Vowed to music's magic spell,
Passionate and ineffable.
Where do all the roses go,
They that die before the snow?
Was their beauty all forsworn?
(Ah, no--no!)
Flush and odor vowed aright,
When they promised rare delight,
Perennial and exquisite.
Fragile flowers and melodies
Claim a dual paradise,
Beauty is not feof to death;
(Ah, no--no)
Beauty lives in essence free,
In the inner heart we see
Beauty's immortality.
They that flow and fade in air?
Was their beauty all foredone?
(Ah, no--no!)
Pulse and cadence truth did tell,
Vowed to music's magic spell,
Passionate and ineffable.
Where do all the roses go,
They that die before the snow?
Was their beauty all forsworn?
(Ah, no--no!)
Flush and odor vowed aright,
When they promised rare delight,
Perennial and exquisite.
Fragile flowers and melodies
Claim a dual paradise,
Beauty is not feof to death;
(Ah, no--no)
Beauty lives in essence free,
In the inner heart we see
Beauty's immortality.
-Duncan Campbell Scott
2010-11-03
weeekly update !
heeelloo blog ,
sorry its been a little while, craaazy busy. man , i seem to always say that ... guess its cause im busy lol
annnywho had a pretty solid weekend , HALLOWEEN ! got a little messy on friday night but whatevss then saturday night i went up to mcmaster to go the the uni bar with sammy and her roomies , suuuper fun times :)
as for this week, its pretty regular .. tomorrow WESTERN demonstration .. loooking forward to that .. and math test , not looking forward to that ! lol and lots of other fun events coming up !!!
britty is staying over firday cause we start at crawford on saturday and sunday ! this year instead of cash im going to be making the evergreen arrangement , get to be a little artsy !!! WOOO :)
as for satuday night i get to see some of my FAVOURITE PEOPLE! torrrrks , tillybird and annngieee :)<3 cant wait
that bout it !!!
little music update .. they may be common songs or songs that were suggested to me but im loving them ... utube em up :
your love-nicki minaj, what's my name-rihann, we are who we are-keisha, difficult-uffie, energy-keri hilson
night night xoxoxox :D
sorry its been a little while, craaazy busy. man , i seem to always say that ... guess its cause im busy lol
annnywho had a pretty solid weekend , HALLOWEEN ! got a little messy on friday night but whatevss then saturday night i went up to mcmaster to go the the uni bar with sammy and her roomies , suuuper fun times :)
as for this week, its pretty regular .. tomorrow WESTERN demonstration .. loooking forward to that .. and math test , not looking forward to that ! lol and lots of other fun events coming up !!!
britty is staying over firday cause we start at crawford on saturday and sunday ! this year instead of cash im going to be making the evergreen arrangement , get to be a little artsy !!! WOOO :)
as for satuday night i get to see some of my FAVOURITE PEOPLE! torrrrks , tillybird and annngieee :)<3 cant wait
that bout it !!!
little music update .. they may be common songs or songs that were suggested to me but im loving them ... utube em up :
your love-nicki minaj, what's my name-rihann, we are who we are-keisha, difficult-uffie, energy-keri hilson
night night xoxoxox :D
2010-10-25
10 Things I Hate About You.
Tori Pick reminded me of 10 Things I Hate About You from her recent blog 10 Things I'd Like to Say to You ... So I've been meaning to blog this ! I'm not really a hater but this is partly copied from the classic movie "10 Things I Hate About You" and partly twisted around to express my feelings .
From: Me.
To: You.
Here it goes :
I hate the way you make me feel,
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate that I regret you so much ,
but more that I don't at all.
I hate that you keep stringing me along ,
but would have trouble fully letting you go.
I hate it when I think of you, or when youre on my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.
From: Me.
To: You.
Here it goes :
I hate the way you make me feel,
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate that I regret you so much ,
but more that I don't at all.
I hate that you keep stringing me along ,
but would have trouble fully letting you go.
I hate it when I think of you, or when youre on my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.
lonnnndon babby !
So I had a pretty unreal weekend...
Drove up to London, jamming some beats in the car
Reached Tillybird and we went out grocery shopping then SUSHI dinnnner :)
after we cleaned her room hahah messiness :P and got ready for tooogaa (which we arrived casually late hah **cough cough 11:30) Pretty drunken night but loads of fun
woke up slightly hungover hahah and met up with andrew and vic for a SUUUPERB tour of Western!!! really lovin it, can definitely see myself there ! :) and lastly had a delicious lunch at Moxys!!!
overall fun times, many laughs for sure !!
love you best friend :)
2010-10-21
your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
haven't blogged in a little while, my bad. been crazy busy with school and my job lately.. tiring me out and making me a tad sick but meh, ill get over it! current life = decent. loving friends right now , but love em even when we're all drama free.
tomorrow = Friday (thank god) and TICAT game.. pretty excited .. solid night with the boys and miss mlot, thornhill and moffat :)
Saturday = Work then driving up to LOOOONDON ! Toga party at the shawe ahahahhaha then spending the night with m besssstie
Sunday- touring around westeeeeerrrnnn so excited :)
then back to reality i guess , WHHAM physics test right when i get back wooohooo :P
as for the the love life , well its pretty dull as per usual lol , why is it that i torture myself mentioning my lack of love life ? maybe because it'd be nice to have a little fling .. as death cab once told me .. "someday you will be loved" ... check it out (loves it) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neXaFUmiV3g
anywho , I'm gunna go relax in the tubbbb
ta ta for now fellow readers
have a wonderful evening :)
tomorrow = Friday (thank god) and TICAT game.. pretty excited .. solid night with the boys and miss mlot, thornhill and moffat :)
Saturday = Work then driving up to LOOOONDON ! Toga party at the shawe ahahahhaha then spending the night with m besssstie
Sunday- touring around westeeeeerrrnnn so excited :)
then back to reality i guess , WHHAM physics test right when i get back wooohooo :P
as for the the love life , well its pretty dull as per usual lol , why is it that i torture myself mentioning my lack of love life ? maybe because it'd be nice to have a little fling .. as death cab once told me .. "someday you will be loved" ... check it out (loves it) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neXaFUmiV3g
anywho , I'm gunna go relax in the tubbbb
ta ta for now fellow readers
have a wonderful evening :)
2010-10-12
untitled?
Beautiful day but a lousy mood.
So I grabbed a cup of tea and took young Newman out for a walk.
Turned on some beats and tried to work out my feelings.
Ever had one of those days where no matter what happens, big or small, tears well up in your eyes? Just had one. And although I didn't cry, I felt like I was going to burst in tears at any given moment. Why you might ask? Good question, because I myself can't even figure it out.
I guess I'm just not feeling 100% myself. I felt like I was in one of those TV scenes where you're standing in the middle of the hall and everyone around you is passing in a blur.
Standing and watching your best friend walk away. Or standing and feeling broken hearted. Standing and knowing that lately, you're not doing as well as you could.
I honestly can't pinpoint when I started feeling this way... I lost myself and I'd like to find my way again. Really, how hard can it be? I'm standing right here, I just need to get a grip and be me.
So I take off my sweater and stand in the brisk cold Autumn air. And for the first time today, I feel something other than sadness.
For anyone reading or just to cyberspace, my apologies for the outburst of gloom. On a positive note, I now raise my cup of tea and toast to a happy week. In my opinion the first step to overcoming sadness, is to plaster a wide smile on your face and tell yourself that this will get better (as cliche as that sounds)
Goodbye for now and thank you blog for the little therapy session.
Sabrina xo
So I grabbed a cup of tea and took young Newman out for a walk.
Turned on some beats and tried to work out my feelings.
Ever had one of those days where no matter what happens, big or small, tears well up in your eyes? Just had one. And although I didn't cry, I felt like I was going to burst in tears at any given moment. Why you might ask? Good question, because I myself can't even figure it out.
I guess I'm just not feeling 100% myself. I felt like I was in one of those TV scenes where you're standing in the middle of the hall and everyone around you is passing in a blur.
Standing and watching your best friend walk away. Or standing and feeling broken hearted. Standing and knowing that lately, you're not doing as well as you could.
I honestly can't pinpoint when I started feeling this way... I lost myself and I'd like to find my way again. Really, how hard can it be? I'm standing right here, I just need to get a grip and be me.
So I take off my sweater and stand in the brisk cold Autumn air. And for the first time today, I feel something other than sadness.
For anyone reading or just to cyberspace, my apologies for the outburst of gloom. On a positive note, I now raise my cup of tea and toast to a happy week. In my opinion the first step to overcoming sadness, is to plaster a wide smile on your face and tell yourself that this will get better (as cliche as that sounds)
Goodbye for now and thank you blog for the little therapy session.
Sabrina xo
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