I think that I'm a good friend. I care and put a lot of thought and effort into my friendships. I put thought into gifts and special events, I feel concerned and I listen if friends need my support, I ask questions and get to know my friends and quite honestly, I truly value my friendships. I don't do these things and care so much because I want an award for being the bestest friend, I do it because I genuinely care.
Part of me thinks that friends come before family, because friends understand you on a whole different level. If things aren't going well at home, they're always there to comfort you... Well that's what I thought, but its not true. Only a TRUE friend cares and only a TRUE friend appriciates you.
I realized today that it's so tiring to put in so much effort and only being acknolwedged and apprieciated sometimes. That's not how it works. I'm sick of putting 100% into a relationship and only get 70% in return. I don't want 70%!! Hell, I don't even think Im getting 70% sometimes!! It would be nice to be more valued sometimes.
After today, I've decided that what you give is what you get. If you only want to put 50% into a relationship then thats what you'll get in return from me. Because I don't have the energy to waste my time and care so much to only be cared about a little bit in return. And when it comes to talking behind people's backs, well that just doesn't fly with me.. I wont put up with that anymore.
Im not saying Im perfect, there are definitely times where Im not a thoughtful and caring friend. We all have moments but I hope my friendship is valued and important enough to you that you consider what I've said.
Im not asking for much, just a true friend.
